maybe..

Maybe … There are moments in life when you miss someone — a parent, a spouse, a friend, a child, even someone that you've just barely knew  — sooo much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real, so that once they are around you appreciate them more. 

something

Something between the line

Something is better left unsaid

Something needs to be done

Something that I really wanted

Something to get my mood back

Something which I assume just a platonic

Something triggers me

Something that I looking forward to

Something is burning inside

Something is burning outside…(oh S@$%, I forgot my indomie rebus!)

a like-minded individual who fits like a good pair of jeans.

Someone who will make weird noises with me all the time and then laugh hysterically about it afterwards.

Someone who understands that a random hug makes the whole day seem brighter.

Someone who will always put up with my bullshit, but make me realize I need to change for the better.

Someone that may not be understands my obsession with Original Sound Track, but doesn't judge me for it either.

Someone who will call exactly when they say they will.

Someone who will be stick around, even when it's hard… especially when it's hard.

Someone who listens to my problems, and doesn't try to make theirs seem worse to make me feel better.

Someone who doesn't look at me like I'm stupid even if what I asked or said was.

Someone to make me laugh through my tears.

Someone who will go to the Starbucks across the street and be my own personal drive thru, even though they does not drink coffee.

Someone who willing to hold up the mirror and remind me to be the best version of myself possible.

Someone who thinks that my scars are beautiful.

Someone who doesn't care that I cry at the end of any movie that's remotely sad.

Someone who finishes my sentences without even thinking about it.

Someone who understands my "I'm an individual" moments.

Someone who is just as random as I am.

Someone who knows im crazy, but doesn't want it any other way.

Someone who doesn't care if I'm a size 2 model or size 14.

Someone who will talk to me until two in the morning about secrets they've never told anybody else.

Someone who can accept that reading isn't only for nerds.

Someone who will share ice cream with me and love every bite of it.

Someone who isn't afraid to sing.

Someone who asks how my day was, and genuinely wants to know the answer, no matter how long my answer may be.

Someone who doesn't care how unbelievably cheesy I am.

Someone who will go with me to thrift stores and flea markets and laugh at all the crazy things that people no longer want.

Someone with great wit.

Someone who won't get embarrassed to share photos of their youth.

Someone for whom awkward silences are actually comfortable.

Someone who is okay with just sitting in the quiet.

Someone to remind me that it's not so bad.

Someone who doesn't mind me singing loudly to obnoxious pop songs in the car.

Someone who comfortable to share his passion with me, even thought we know that we're different.

Someone who makes me laugh… as much as I laugh at myself!

im just a human

ACCORDING TO GREEK MYTHOLGY, HUMANS WERE ORIGINALLY CREATED WITH FOUR ARMS, FOUR LEGS, AND A HEAD WITH TWO FACES. FEARING THEIR POWERS, ZEUS SPLIT THEM INTO TWO PARTS; CONDEMNING THEM TO SPEND THE REST OF THEIR LIVES IN SEARCH OF THEIR OTHER HALVES.

oh how i enjoyed talkin to you

The more you see the less you know
The less you find out as you go
I knew much more then than I do now

Neon heart day-glow eyes
A city lit by fireflies
They're advertising in the skies
For people like us

And I miss you when you're not around
I'm getting ready to leave the ground

Oh you look so beautiful tonight
In the city of blinding lights

this could be nothing

How can we miss someone we’ve just barely knew? 

the best day of my life

Siang tadi seorang teman baik di dunia maya mengajak saya untuk melakukan sebuah permainan. Dia meminta saya menulis, di blog, tentang “the best day in my life”. Sedikit terkejut, dalam artian saya itu orangnya cenderung meng “the best day in my life” kan setiap hal yang terjadi dalam kehidupan saya sehari-hari. Jadi kalau suatu pagi saya naik mobil ke kantor dalam waktu 30 menit, sampai kantor saya akan bilang “gila hari ini hari terbaik gue” atau ketika saya selesai membaca buku bagus saya bilang “gila, hidup gue terasa berbeda hari ini” bahkan untuk hal sederhana seperti menerima telpon 5 menit dari orang yang tidak disangka saya dapat mengatakan “ ini hari terbaik dalam hidup gue!”. So what about the things I don’t like? Gimana tentang menyetir ditengah malam saat hujan turun deras dan kacamata saya ketinggalan di rumah, gimana dengan tugas kantor yang sepertinya gak ada titiknya, gimana dengan kegilaan yang harus saya hadapi saat klien marah-marah…that’s too, saya tetap akan merasa setiap hari semua kejadian baik atau buruk, tetap best buat saya. membuat saya merasa “alive”.

Jadi yang terbaik yang mana?

Doesn’t really matter. serius. Dan saya nggak bisa mengkotak-kotakan kejadian-kejadian tertentu dalam keseharian saya kedalam kolom good ~ better ~ best. I just embracing all the things that happen to me, karna saya rasa mungkin saja kejadian-kejadian dalam keseharian saya itu gak akan terjadi untuk dua kali nya dalam hidup saya.

teman baik

Thomas Wiradikusuma

10:47 AM hey karina, would you do me a favor? 10:47 AM

apa? 10:47 AM

Me

Thomas Wiradikusuma

LAIN KALI KALAU BEGITU LAGI LET ME KNOW 10:48 AM

ideas

questioning

. Are you having difficulty sleeping?
. Do thoughts about work intrude when you are not at work?
. Are you enjoying your time at work less and less?
. Do you have difficulty enjoying your time away from work?
. Are you becoming more irritable and less patient?

(sigh)

contemplating is not a sin

padjajaran street ~ march 2009

[conversation] predator

Alligator : “do you think im glowing?”

Predator : “no. you're the shimmering kind”

Alligator : (smile)

Predator : “light subtle enough to shade a comfort sense. Not to flashy that'll force your surroundings to shut their eyes but enough to allow them clear path”

my name is Karina Cahya Saputri, the dearest glowing daughter. and my parents would be proud.

things I realized today:

Actually skip work, for not dealing with clients, phone ringing, emails, tasks, more task,..is pretty cool. 

I really love “when ure mind made up”. And I think the movie was genius. (just exaggerate it)

My “hibernate” playlist emphasize that im in extremely gloomy mood.

I would go crazy without my friend, Gad. I feel like our combined creative juju is pretty unstoppable.

I want to fall in love again. I want to be able to trust someone again. I want a best friend that I get to make out with regularly. I want to be able to depend on and need someone else. I want to share my life with someone.

Warm weather and sunshine do wonders for my mental health.

This weekend is going to be the best on record. I can feel it ß tryin to be positive won’t kill me kan J

"tea for two" ...for one

Severe headache. Downpour. Warm tea. Bitter Ballen. Secret Garden ~ BS. 

Happiness is for free.

[nothing]

“With insomnia, nothing is real.

Everything is far away. 

Everything is a copy of a copy of a copy.” 

- Fight Club 

accompanied

Accompanied, (sigh) that would be mollifying.

pagi ini...

Bosan.

Malas.

Ada dua dokumen yang seharusnya sudah selesai dibaca minggu ini.

Dan ini sudah hari Rabu.

Tapi saya baru sampai di halaman "Table of Content".

Tidak menarik.

Apa yang menarik untuk dilakukan pagi ini?

Diam dikasur.Keluar balkon.Menghirup udara.Masuk kamar lagi.Nyalakan i-tunes.Duduk lagi di kasur.Bengong.

Ini akan menjadi hari yang sangat panjang untuk saya.Tarik nafas panjang.

 

thought

There are some rules on Earth which cannot be broken. Gravity pulls us down, water is shapeless, sound travels in waves. But there are situations where no rules apply. Like love. No rules. So go on, dance on rooftops, play House or do whatever you want. You can't possibly make a mistake with something that has no rules.

my huckleberry friends

Meet my huckleberry friend. Ketemuan sekitar beberapa tahun lalu, gak sengaja di perjodohkan di satu kelas yg mengharuskan kami berkelompok selama satu semester. Sebagai angkatan jebot punya, gue agak malu mau nyaperin mereka,..heheh, apa daya tugas ini penting banget untuk menghilangkan status jebot gue. Maka bertemanlah kami.

Mari saya kenalkan mereka:

Asti Ramadhani Gadis. Lajang. 24 menuju 25. Dia yang paling berkuasa, in a good way, ms. Organize. Punya kemampuan mengorganisir diluar batas kewajaran, genetis, namun tidak menular. Hobinya mengumpulkan semua yang berwarna pink,…sebenernya hobi mengumpulkan semua hal2 kecil yang buat orang normal gak penting,..dia emang gak masuk orang normal. Berteman dengan dia memudahkan segalanya. Gak perlu munafik, apalagi jaim (sama aja yah). Satu hal yg gue suka dari dia, dia bias menerima gue apa adanya..hahaha, sounds like lover yah. Tapi beneran, itu yang membuat gue betah lama-lama sama dia. Kalau ada cowok yang gak mau ama dia shame on tuh cowok. Kalo dia gak mau ma kalian?! Yah, belum berjodoh namanya.

Ratu Rianty Rachmat. Taken. Baru saja 25. Dia yang paling cute. Bukan hanya karna dia anak bontot dan berbadan paling kecil diantara keluarga, namun juga act as a cute girl. Sekilas terlihat seperti tipe blondy girl, tapi jangan salah, isi kepalanya luar biasa. Dia lebih mudah dikenali sebagai ms. Well-present. Setiap ingin menunjukkan sesuatu dia pasti prepare semua sebaik dan sebagus mungkin. Bahkan untuk kegiatan menginap dirumahnya, kamarnya di buat sedemikian nyaman dan dilengkapi dengan menu camilan favorit masing-masing anak, lovely banget. Sampe sekarang dia selalu bias diandalkan untuk tips dan trik dalam hal flirty, betul-betul cerdas! .

Listya Manopo. Lajang. 25 menuju 26. Ms. Always be happy. Ketawanya khas. Cocok dengan gue, dia pemakan segala. Kemapuan meretouch fotonya bisa diacungin dua jempol. Dia suka banget sama pria dengan kemampuan bahasa inggris tingkat advance. Dekat-dekat dia membantu gue untuk gak kebanyakan mikir. Dan melihat masalah dari sisi yang lebih humoris. Kemampuan mengingat judul film, actor-aktor tampan, sampe quote-quote berarti memudahkan gue untuk merecall ingatan, berhubung im not good in names…engg, number juga sih, sebenernya im not good in anything :P

Ketika kami berempat bertemu, dijamin malam akan terasa sangat singkat. aku rindu kalian.

 

never-mind

This is just way too hard.

And I'm too tired.

Too bored.

Too exhausted.

Too complex.

Too hopeless.

Too restless

i must stop this ridiculous impulsive thingy.