L e g a l A l i e n

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2011-12-29T09:01:00.003+07:00

Just one look at you
And I know it's gonna be
A lovely day...

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2011-10-15T20:20:00.006+07:00

you smells like home.

numb.

2011-09-27T20:50:00.000+07:00

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2011-08-08T00:10:00.006+07:00

A : i like the pic, nice one.
B : terima kasih :)

funny how sometime you think you can't even imagine how is your life will turn to
and it's been two year now, freaking weird two years
i wonder if one still can remember a little things back in two years
well, i do.

raising my chocolate milk in a cartoon box
and here's for the old time sake
i will always miss august two years ago

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2011-05-19T20:33:00.006+07:00

summer is over, we kiss and we say goodbye
...well i heard you always meet twice in life, so i'll see you guys halfway :)

double u ti

2011-05-12T23:20:00.000+07:00

Acong (bukan nama sebenarnya)

Terakhir ketemu dia pas bulan puasa tahun lalu, jam 4 subuh, pulang kantor, duduk di bunderan HI sambil minum sekaleng bir untuk mengisi waktu sahur. Dia tahu saya masuk kategori manusia “weirdo”. Tapi dia (sepertinya) tidak pernah keberatan – kecuali kalau saya (kebanyakan) curhat muluk soal cowok.

Selamat menempuh hidup baru! Sorry i cannot come, You’re gonna be an awesome husband and dad –

you’re always an awesome mate!

i must admit, i miss you...

2011-02-15T20:44:00.002+07:00

jakarta.
your dim light.
the empty street at 1 a.m
the lonesome night and folk music while i drove home.
the 24 gas station with a hot dog booth.
the humid air with a smell of sins.
the endless hell.

am strand treffen?

2011-01-28T13:47:00.004+07:00

it's weekend. ever since i moved here weekend become the the best part of the island.

i plan to go out and enjoy the breeze at the nearest beach this weekend. and make my own playlist for the whole weekend. i know i don't usually post the-so-called-playlist or whatsoever but here's some of it..

Beirut - Nantes
Fink - This is The Thing
Bjork - Hyperballad
The Bees - Sky holds the sun
Bon Iver - Skinny Love
Home and Dry (cover version)
Anatakikou - Lily
KOC - Misread
Sigur Ros - Hoppipola
...and a lot more from Beirut (sorry been listening to them whole week now :P)

Enjoy your weekend stranger!

ps. feel free to add more list if you know a suitable tunes that suit a breezy weekend

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2011-01-23T20:40:00.001+07:00

I always love the idea of two people meeting on sort of odd time and end up with a nice witty conversation.

And the reality that they won’t meet each other again later, truly scored.

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2011-01-08T18:31:00.001+07:00

there's something about midnight walking down the beach that really soothed me.

it's quite and comforting.

happy new year!

2011-01-02T12:31:00.003+07:00

new year.

same goal.

oh heck, at least i still have goals

..and 363 days to accomplish it.

lets count!

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2010-12-28T15:23:00.002+07:00

"There are some things in this world that can be done over, and some that can't.

And time passing is one thing that can't be redone.

Come this far, and you can't go back."

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"After a certain length

of time has passed, things harden up. Like cement hardening in a bucket. And we

can't go back anymore. What you want to say is that the cement that makes you up

has hardened, so the you you are now can't be anyone else."

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Haruki Murakami - South of the Border, West of the sun

three germans & two weirdos

2010-12-19T18:55:00.005+07:00

probably the best...

attraversiamo

2010-11-15T22:23:00.002+07:00

at the end, everything is strangely went okay

it scares me to death..

2010-10-25T16:30:00.007+07:00

..just to think out that my project will be on the exhibition

but heck, you're all invited!

2010-09-06T05:46:00.000+07:00

And the things that keep us apart keep me alive and

The things that keep me alive keep me alone

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2010-08-21T17:41:00.000+07:00

I'm gonna make it by any means

I got a pocket full of dreams

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2010-08-17T22:02:00.002+07:00

ah, i remember the time when i used to jump a lot and goofy around a LOT

it's been a while, i should go out more often i guess

i just enroll myself to the fight club (no i'm just kidding)

2010-08-08T21:26:00.003+07:00

The wise man said “IF IT HURTS, IT'S PROBABLY WORTH IT’

Well lets talkin about getting hurt to feel alive, yes, to feel alive (am I some kind of self abuser?! NO). Lately I was thinking about myself (and talking to myself too, I’m not crazy and I’d love to talk to myself). The new job I had now, which I’m still trying so hard to understand why I choose this crazy one instead the steady previous one, is getting better in some aspects. The salary, the crazy work hours, the people, and the office they’re like some kind of fruit mix in a plate served with a spicy-sweet-sour sauces (the thing that my stomach can’t resist, but my mouth longing for it). One day I was driving home on the highway at 3 in the morning after had so much hell for working more than 12 hours, and suddenly I cried while driving without a reason. And I stop at the emergency road side and thinkin “why the heck am I cryin?!” And I consciousness answered it with “because you need it, it makes you alive”.

You know I believe that sometimes something happen for a reason. Why i took the job, why I have to meet such an ignorant guy (and fall for him for stupid reason, doh!), why I have you start to take a photos again, why I have to feel so many rejections (which sometime makes believe that I’m not that good). And there’s only one answer for that, because it’s worth it, it’s really worth it.

My life is all about ups and downs (and a flat dying line sometimes). It never was too easy, but in another way it never been too hard for me. I guess all this shity things that comes into my life will somehow lead me somewhere, somewhere I don’t know (and can’t even imagine where). It might brings me to a place that I really wanted, but it also can lead me to somewhere I don’t expect it. Yet, at the end all the bruises I got will leave a mark, a mark that will remind me that life is something that you can’t be predicted but still something you can always be thankful for.

currently listening to this while writing (been listening it for the whole freaking day actually)

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2010-08-04T22:35:00.006+07:00

Dear alien,

I know that I easily will fall for you for the first time I see your works. I’m suck I know that. And by the second of your witty line, I fall. Just like a lil girl when she gets her first doll (tho i chose a robot toy instead of a doll). Well what can I say, I like you. And I know I’ve been like you for a while. And I know that it’s just not right (and it feels not right for me too I guess). But I think that I need to tell you that, for my own sane. Cause it’s been a while and it makes me crazy (oh no, not you, I meant the feeling, and don’t get too cocky). I would love to blame you for this, cause you know that stupid and tricky way you got, really gets me – but I don’t think it’ll be wise blaming someone for your own feeling since you know you’re just being yourself (I know you’re gonna say “hey I didn’t do anything” )and I’m just being moron.

Heck there I’m saying you this, with a lil hope that this will be some kind of reliever for me ‘cause I know it won’t affect you in any forms. And don’t ask me why, because I know that if I say that I like someone I never met (skype doesn’t counts) I’ll sounds like an idiot (which I am, doh.) and I know you probably will think that “oh jezz dude, you know what I told you about –something is better left unsaid- thingy”, well I think I’m not a something-is-better-left-unsaid person, I tend to tell how I feel (tho I notice that I’ll regret this later, but who cares)

Okay then enough said, I guess I’m done with this stupid letter, and I must admit that no matter how evil you are, you really hit me on the right place (and I guess you never meant to, and again I’m stupid). Oh well I blabbered a lot, thanks for your time. Just in case you will take this as serious one, don’t; just pretend that this is randomly things you found on the street, like the street sign – you read it and you continue walk (cause that’s what –I think- I’m gonna do with my feeling for you).

27 of sanity

2010-07-22T01:35:00.001+07:00

quirky things happen when you least (or probably not) expect it.

well guess i should congrats myself,..for keepin' me sane!

Hoppípolla

2010-06-11T00:00:00.003+07:00

Jump into puddles with no boots on, completely drenched with no boots on.

And I get a nosebleed but I always stand up

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2010-05-16T23:11:00.003+07:00

A : you better find another phrase, cos you used that idk too much

B : i know :|

A : Well, i`m gonna say this just once and you better think about it yourself, hard! there are some people that actually care about you, and what you`re doing. those people want you to choose your path the right way, make your own decision. not saying shits like idk all the time!

i wish you know...

and im gonna miss...

2010-05-16T00:36:00.007+07:00

sit on my cubical and spending time to meet/greet/see people who inspire my days.
slide in the hallway just to submit the monthly budget report or just simply let go of the stresses.

spend my nights to set up a large bundle that will pay up my salary.

but one im gonna miss for sure..
my partner. a good listener, friend and someone who is balancing my day life in the office

and yes mbak, this is not a goodbye - but i'll see you soon. Merci pour tout!

why so serious wink

2010-05-02T02:17:00.005+07:00

i got this from ms. calosa, ... now i just can't stop!

oh well, im not a talented drawer, pardon the mess >.<

koffie

2010-04-20T14:12:00.004+07:00

coming soon ;)

tentang bodoh

2010-04-13T00:02:00.007+07:00

Melakukan hal bodoh tidak sebodoh yang saya bayangkan.

Ya itu yang ada dipikiran sadar saya sekarang. Dan itu bukan hal bodoh!

sebelas tahun yang lalu saya hanya remaja yang berhasrat besar dengan semua hal, dan termasuk didalamnya membina hubungan percintaan (disaat saya hanya mendefinisikan cinta sebagai kamu suka aku suka yuk kita pacaran).

Duduk sekarang saya menutup lembar terakhir masa sebelas tahun saya lalu. Dan hanya satu kata yang bisa saya pikirkan sekarang. Bodoh.

Bagaimana mungkin saya bisa begitu jatuh cintanya pada seorang remaja yang sedang mancari jati dirinya disaat saya juga tengah mencari jati diri saya, kala itu. Bodoh. Dan saya bisa menulis berlembar-lebar hari demi hari dimana saya dan dia melakukan banyak sekali kebodohan bersama. Sangat bodoh. Agak sulit dimengerti untuk saya setelah sebelas tahun. menurut ilmu yang saya pelajari di bangku perkuliahan, sebelas tahun lalu saya itu adalah fase pra remaja, dimana saya dianggap wajar saja melakukan hal bodoh. Entah itu pembenaran atau kebodohan.

Dan sebelas tahun setelah kebodohan itu, saya bertemu kambali dengan remaja yang ternyata sudah begitu mengenal dirinya (Semoga saya tidak bodoh mempercayai apa yang saya lihat). Banyak sekali kebodohan sebelas tahun lalu yang kami tertawakan bersama. Sekelibat saya berpikir, kebodohan yang pernah kami lakukan dululah yang membawa saya (dan dia) ke hari dimana kami berbincang saat ini. Dua orang yang dulu sangat sangat bodoh kini paling tidak sudah tahu apa yang mereka mau.

Ps. Dan semoga tidak ada kobodohan yang terulang :))

Pss. dan kalaupun terjadi, semoga diri saya 8 tahun kemudian tidak akan menganggap ini bodoh :P

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2010-04-11T02:12:00.004+07:00

today while im posting something on social networkin website, this words just pop up.

and i feel sad. i don't know why. this words reminds me of someone i respect.

i'm a bit disappointed to see some of my, well for me he's a good and wise man (on his own way), relationship turns awfully bad. he just stop talkin to me.

i kept thinking maybe i did or said something wrong.

and for answer my curiosity, i sent him an e-mail, and apologize if i did something bad on him.

but sadly, he never replied it.

i believe he read it, but maybe it's nothing compared to what i've done.

well, if only you read this crappy post, Captain, i'm truly sorry for whatever i've done.

and i just want you to know, that i learnt a lotS from you (and maybe you never notice that).

and kinda miss the stupid but fun chats with you and the gank.

GBU. wherever you are.

moi

2010-04-06T18:44:00.006+07:00

taken by Mr. Homer. why do i like this kind of shot?!

"probably 'cause you're weird" (said someone) :P

24/03/2010

2010-03-24T11:56:00.000+07:00

Men are like wine: some turn to vinegar, but the best improve with age.

Happy birthday, you.

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2010-03-21T13:41:00.002+07:00

I’ve been not myself lately.

I always love to shoot, maybe since I was on junior high. I’m a visual person. I can imagine some visual things beyond any other people, I guess. I snap what I like, what I feel. I interpret my works with my own thought. I never cared whether people would understand it or not. I just don’t care. I just do what I like.

But for the past couple months, I’m not myself. I do networking to upgrade some knowledge about photography (in this way, I feel this is the right way to learn). In other way, I became very consider what would be one thinking about my works. This lead the way i shoot. I shoot what people expected me to shoot. I try to satisfy what they want to see. Yet I feel if I can do that, I can be just as good as they are.

But lately, I somehow feel that it was so wrong. I miss the way I shoot. I miss looking at my own works and see it the way I used to see. I miss to shoot with my own imaginary. Someone told me that my previous works can be just lucky shots (since I know nothing about photography techniques). What if it's true, that I was just lucky? Does it mean I can’t be good with that?

Before I wrote this, I randomly preview my past works. I feel warm inside. I still remember how I feel on the day I took the shots. And it does feel good. And I think I should just get back working the way I used to be. Do it with my own way. And what about people, should I care, or just ignore them? Well I guess I just let people think the way they think. I don’t mind if they don’t like it, it just a matter of different perspectives. While at the moment, I still can learn a lot thing from their perspectives too.

Oh, I’m not a photographer. I just love to shoot.

yes, why not

2010-03-18T10:55:00.002+07:00

It is more fun to talk with someone who doesn't use long, difficult words but rather short, easy words like "how about a cup of coffee?"

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2010-03-05T01:01:00.002+07:00

why do I say I'm fine?
when it's obvious I'm not.
why's it so hard to tell you what I want?
why can't you just read my mind?
why do I fear that the quieter I am the less you will listen?
why do I care whether you like me or not?
why is it so hard for me to be angry?
why is it such work to stay conscious and so easy to get stuck?
and not the other way around?

c'est la vie. i'm done.

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2010-03-01T19:12:00.006+07:00

Tepat saat saya mengantungkan harapan kepada apa yang saya rasa sanggup saya lakukan, dia membuat saya kembali ke persimpangan. Kembali mempertanyakan, apa memang saya tidak sanggup. Kembali meragukan, apa saya tidak berbakat. Seperti balon bulat besar yang karetnya di lepas pelan-pelan, mengempis. Saya mengempis disaat seharusnya plastik bulat berisi helium ini membumbung terikat kencang.

Kenapa ini jadi terasa berat? Karna dia? Karna saya memiliki sedikit rasa kepadanya? Karna rasa itu saya jadi berharap dia tidak membuat saya bediri lagi di pesimpangan? Karna saya berharap dia bisa menuntun saya pada satu jalan. Tapi kembali lagi, siapa saya.

Balon bulat itu memang tidak sebesar kemarin. Tapi saya , kali ini, akan memastikan karetnya mengikat kencang dan kuat.

Koffie

2010-02-21T17:54:00.002+07:00

What happen last Friday? I got hit by thunder. Haha naahhh!

So maybe some of you (is there anyone read this crap :P) know that I talked to this guy like every day, oh well except on weekend, but yeah most of the time we talked, shared things in photography and laughing our self (kinda pathetic, who cares!). Until Friday, im about to give up on shooting, since I found out that it's getting worst and worst every day. But then I realize that the only thing that brings an enjoyment in my life is shooting. So I thought about having this guy as my partner. Well I know some of you will probably think that it's so lame to do this kind of shots (a guy just laughing out loud with my idea -__-"), but hell I don't care. I need to do something instead of feeling pity to myself, and regret everything later. Beside, heck im gonna be just at my cubical doing boring stuff until I get a new job. So yeah, here it goes Koffie, coming soon.

the three dotted boy

2010-02-17T16:43:00.005+07:00

this is my favorite shots from him.

oh and due to limited upload capacity, flickr cut it up into a few seconds :( , but you can see the full version on my Vimeo

what the hell is wrong with me?!?

2010-02-03T14:37:00.003+07:00

And for that damn sarcasms, the ignorance, stubbornness, stupid jokes – even the one where you put me as the subject, dammit I gotta admit that, yeah, you really hit me at the right place.

january at it's random

2010-01-28T10:05:00.002+07:00

I haven’t touched my camera since a week or more.

Friend of mine keeps reminding about the photo exhibition plan.

One of the participants has just finished her shoot.

I should go to my home town as soon as possible.

I must finish the unfinished photo slide.

Need more idea for project mono.

…and for the photo-book.

.....and for the photo exhibition.

ghaaa why am i still working at this office btw?!?

..and cheese!

2010-01-12T00:56:00.002+07:00

this isn't coincidence, there's no such thing!

this and that,; just a self evaluation

2010-01-04T10:00:00.002+07:00

My friend: “So what’s your plan in this 2010 rin?”

Me : “mhmmm..(thinking) mhmmm (start looking out through the window) mhmmm (thinking about indomie rebus pake telor :P)”

Well I don’t plan things! Some of my close friends maybe noticed that im an impulsive person. you don’t wanna know the details :P. but I guess makin plan is not a bad idea. It will be disappointing if it didn’t work out. Well, I guess it’s more like a self evaluation for me instead of resolution. We’ll see ;)

So 2010 huh?! First, stop being impulsive! Haha for some people being an impulsive one sounds not a big deal, but trust me; it’s a big deal for me. I (most of the time) embarrassed myself with being like one. And that’s just bad bad bad ;))

Second, I know this has been a cliché resolution (and I did this every year) to stop smoking. I know I can do it. But well, just can stand the temptation. So, this year, it will be a less cig than stop to consume it :P

And for the rest, just let the dice fall where they may ^_^

Ps : one thing,..if only I can, i would love to meet him this year

Pss : if not,…well just wish that I still can talk to him ;))

before & after

2010-01-02T22:12:00.002+07:00

Fellow Photographers : Mr. Acong & Mr. TomGan

the day before and after new year's eve. thanks for the accompany guys!

2010

2010-01-01T19:11:00.001+07:00

Happy New Year 2010. Have brighter days guys!

the girls behind the gun

2009-12-28T13:05:00.002+07:00

Very talented girls. Oh well, and impulsive one too, especially on analogue camera (guess I’m not the only one :P)

Meicy & Riksa

Andre & Norma's

2009-12-21T09:51:00.004+07:00

Last weekend my cousin got married to a nice beautiful lady. It was a good day, so many happy faces and laugh. Oh well at the same time I tried my not-so-new lens. It works perfectly awesome since, well, it manufactured on 1980! Just need to get to used to it, cause it’s manual lens and I’m such a pathetic on that kind of lens (yeah, blame it to my eyes , and my trembling hands). Ahhh cant hardly wait for an analog cam (I’ll be just patient for this one ^_^ )

behind the...scene?!

2009-12-16T08:19:00.010+07:00

Last weekend. Our first, so called model session.

Location : Jay’s abandoned house

Model : Yuni – my new receptionist

Concept : whatever!

oh i don't know why, but this song is bugging me while i take this shot

more picture here

kanpai!

2009-12-15T21:09:00.007+07:00

Captain Morgan on a Rum
location : Doha - Qatar, -5 from my bedroom

Mr. Salty Squid on a Cold Sake
location : Shizuoka - Japan, +2 from my bedroom

although i just drank a cheap beer in a can and still sad with my computer, they both really made my night :))

film is not dead, it just smells like a hair straightening chemical

2009-12-04T19:09:00.005+07:00

Last night me, anas, sidiq and khrisna are tryin to develop our own films. It’s not the first time for them to do that, but surely that’s my first! Well, im not goin to explain step by step here, but if you guys interesting in developing your own film, you can always find the tutorial on the net.

We haven’t seen the scanned result, but the negative seems okay. Now I can’t hardly wait to get a real analog :D

Okay, im not saying this is easy to do, but you can try cause it’s fun!

See the step by step here "dummies"

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2009-12-02T21:10:00.002+07:00

So I'd like a quiet time please
Yeah, I'd like a quiet time..

a caramel dream

2009-11-22T20:12:00.005+07:00

It won't do

to dream of caramel,

to think of cinnamon

and long for you.

when all i can do is just sitting and watch the simpsons, over and over again..

2009-11-20T09:47:00.003+07:00

for heaven and earth, I really miss that skype dial tone!!!

a farewell for Mr. Thomas

2009-11-19T22:49:00.007+07:00

This weekend, Thomas will leave Indonesia to find so-called a better life in another so-called country. What better things to do except using his so-called free coupon for a so-called fancy pizza resto. Chintzy!. Until we meet again mate. We’ll gonna miss you. Ugh, NOT! Emang enak disana gak ada cewek2 cantik x). semoga berhasil,..and please, stay away from anything that can gets you a “rajam” punishment ;)

why would i need one..

2009-11-18T23:39:00.007+07:00

I don't use myspace or Facebook.

You respond:

i'm a procrastinator, not a good one, but i'm okay

2009-11-13T15:04:00.005+07:00

Last Wednesday my boss asked me “will the light going off again today?”

And i was replied in (pretending) vain,. yes boss the lights will be off today.

But unfortunately (yes, unfortunately) the light went well all day long, and my boss said “oh Karina, you definitely can’t work on the PieLeN”

Yesterday he planned to go outside to pick up his kid with his motorcycle, and he asked again “will rains going down today?!” and I said,..”no sir, it’ll be a bright sunny in the blue sky today” .. then he go and come back, wet, saying “karina, you definitely cant apply as a weatherman”

And today, he had an appointment with a client outside the office. And he asked (yes, he asked a lot of un-important things) “karina, how’s the traffic today,. I mean on lunch time?!”.. and me staring at him saying “Sir, pardon me, but I’m definitely not going to apply as a police officer nor a DLLAJR officer”

I hope he’ll stop askin me things (well. He never)

tu me manques...

2009-11-09T00:04:00.004+07:00

oh how i wish i could just shut my mouth!! but it's pretty relived actually :)

memories

2009-11-08T16:51:00.004+07:00

People’s memories are maybe the fuel they burn to stay alive. Whether those memories have any actual importance or not, it doesn't matter as far as the maintenance of life is concerned. They're all just fuel; advertising fillers in the newspaper, philosophy books, dirty pictures in a magazine, a bundle of check. When you feed 'em to the fire, they're all just paper. The fire isn't thinking, to the fire, they're nothing but scraps of paper.

It's the exact same thing. Important memories, not-so-important memories, totally useless memories: there's no distinction—they're all just fuel!

currently listening to this while writing this post

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2009-11-01T20:51:00.001+07:00

Leave unsaid unspoken

Eyes wide shut unopened

You and me

Always between the lines

Between the lines

happy events is waiting at his home

2009-10-30T02:38:00.006+07:00

Suatu hari saya pernah berjanji untuk menulis di blog dia, namun saya tidak bisa menyanggupi janji saya. Dilain hari, sekali lagi saya berjanji, untuk menulis di ulang tahun dia, dan sekali lagi, saya mengingkari. Bukan saya tidak mau, tapi saya tidak bisa. Saya tidak bisa menulis seapik dia. Dan tidak mempunyai kemampuan bahasa inggris yang memadai untuk menulis sepintar dia. Mungkin hanya ini yg bisa saya ‘tulis’.

Happy birthday cumpret, semoga selalu menjadi teman, rekan kerja, suami dan ayah yang semakin baik setiap harinya :)

and i tend to leave this with my personal touch ;)

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2009-10-25T00:19:00.003+07:00

Satu hari seperti hari-hari lainnya saya duduk dikala hujan. Kenapa hujan kali ini terasa hangat, batin saya. Kenapa rasanya ingin berlari dibawah hujan. Kenapa rasanya ingin berteriak kencang. Berteriak entah kepada apa, atau siapa. Bukan salah hujan kalo hari ini saya ingin berteriak kencang. Bukan salah siapa-siapa juga kalo hujan terasa hangat, bukan seperti rasa yg saya inginkan, dingin. Saya masih terduduk diam, memandangi buliran acak hujan dibalik kaca. Berharap dalam hati, hujan datang seperti rasa yang saya inginkan. Dingin, bukan hangat.

life goes easy..on me

2009-10-23T17:11:00.003+07:00

Sometimes, all you need is just leaving it blank. In my case, it’s black.

whenever im down...

2009-10-19T20:49:00.004+07:00

good pictures boost a good energy :)

too geeks or not too geeks!

2009-10-19T00:21:00.010+07:00

lazy Sunday evening. imagine bunch of geeks with different interests, hangout on a place when internet access, a kitchen to make instant noodles, huge ashtray and a freeze coke are available..sounds geeks?!? hell yeah WE ARE!!

anung, with his instant noodle, and an air soft gun website
ika, anung's girlfriend,..im not sure what is she doing, but i think she's randomly looked at KASKUS.COM!
thomas, busy with his coding and flirt sana-sini through his messenger
...and hell that's my corner! drolling at the photography website and photoblogs

...

2009-10-16T10:46:00.007+07:00

...and if you need me, you know where to go

black slim devil!

2009-10-08T17:21:00.012+07:00

maaf. saya sebelumnya gak pernah cerita-cerita kalo kepengen sesuatu. cuman saya gak nahan. saya pengen banget ini. pengen. banget. udah dari 5 bulan lalu ditahan-tahan. akhirnya gak tahan. pengen. banget.

mari mengejar cahaya!

thanks to B for makin this come true :D

and if only one thing had happened differently...

2009-10-07T20:37:00.002+07:00

All these people, their own lives, the way things happened for them day by day, affect everyone. Everything you do has a repercussion for everyone else, even when you don't realize it.

Sometimes we're on a collision course, and we just don't know it. Whether it's by accident or by design, there's nothing we can do about it.

Life being what it is... a series of intersecting lives and incidents... Out of anyone's control...

~ listening to this while writing this post

...

2009-10-05T20:35:00.001+07:00

Elizabeth: I guess I’m just looking for a reason.
Jeremy: From my observations, sometimes it’s better off not knowing, and other times there’s no reason to be found.
Elizabeth: Everything has a reason.
Jeremy: Hmm. It’s like these pies and cakes. At the end of every night, the cheesecake and the apple pie are always completely gone. The peach cobbler and the chocolate mousse cake are nearly finished… but there’s always a whole blueberry pie left untouched.
Elizabeth: So what’s wrong with the blueberry pie?
Jeremy: There’s nothing wrong with the blueberry pie. Just… people make other choices. You can’t blame the blueberry pie, just… no one wants it.

~ My Blueberry Nights

:)

2009-09-27T22:10:00.001+07:00

.....But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting

if you see kay, will you tell her that she's a dull

2009-09-24T20:49:00.004+07:00

...

2009-09-24T20:28:00.005+07:00

Bratz missing Ken, while Ken missing Barbie..doh!

:)

2009-09-05T00:08:00.003+07:00

kalo ditanya..."Things you want to do before you die" maka saya akan menjawab..

backpacking around the world
sky diving
deep sea diving
have my own so-called photography exhibition
being in ....

i'm not that smart

2009-09-03T23:52:00.000+07:00

tired.fatigue.vermoid.mude.faradt.stanco. 疲れている. tuirseach.obosit.troot.lelah.

lebih dari apa yang terlihat

2009-09-01T23:23:00.003+07:00

me. a dude. a milf

en attente

2009-08-26T09:17:00.003+07:00

Wait. Don’t you just hate that word sometimes?

palsu

2009-08-16T01:27:00.000+07:00

Manusia terkadang tidak menjadi dirinya sendiri. Terkadang. Manusia malu. Takut. Merasa tidak aman. Tidak nyaman. Terkadang palsu. Kepalsuan itu yang kadang membuat manusia merasa lebih berani, tidak malu, tidak takut. Lebih nyaman. Lebih aman. Lebih bahagia? Ah saya nggak tahu kalo itu. Yang saya tahu, saya pernah memalsukan diri saya,..dan saya ngga bahagia karena itu.

Apakah kamu (pernah) memalsukan diri?

terus belajar

2009-08-09T17:42:00.005+07:00

Fotografi. Saya nggak begitu paham kalau musti menjelaskan secara teknis bagaimana motret yang bener. Saya juga (sebenarnya) nggak menguasai betul kamera yang saya milikin. Buat saya memotret lebih kepada mengabadikan satu hal yang dimata saya menarik (dan mudah-mudahan menarik buat orang yang melihat). Karna terkadang moment tertentu tidak hadir dua kali dalam hidup kita.

Oh oh,..hari ini foto saya ada diantara Foto Pilihan Editor Harian di fotografer.net

teman

2009-08-03T16:12:00.006+07:00

Sudah lama saya mau menulis tentang ini. Tentang teman-teman. Ya tentang kalian yang mengenal saya; lama, baru, dan mungkin belum dan akan. Saya bukan orang yang bisa ditemui dalam acara-acara sosial, atau perkumpulan-perkumpulan anak muda masa kini (saya masih muda lho :P). Saya lebih sering menghabiskan waktu saya di kantor, di kamar, didepan Internet, atau mungkin sedang bersama salah satu dari kalian duduk santai di sudut sebuah kedai kopi atau hanya sekedar bertukar cerita di jendela maya. Sebentar, saya bukan orang aneh kok. Saya,...ya beginilah saya :P oh tapi ini bukan tentang saya, ini tentang teman-teman saya, inspirasi saya, tawa saya, tangis saya, hobi saya, rumpian saya, diskusi saya, pengajar saya, mimpi saya, oase saya ..mereka, teman-teman yang ada dalam hidup saya; lama, baru dan mungkin belum dan akan. Dan untuk kalian teman-teman saya; lama, baru dan mungkin belum dan akan....terima kasih sudah hadir dalam hidup saya J

~ peluk cium hangat saya selalu untuk kalian

alarm

2009-07-30T11:56:00.000+07:00

coba angkat tangan kanan kamu ke depan muka

telapak menghadap muka

kepal tangan nya

sisain telunjuk

sekarang tunjuk jidat kamu

nah itu alarm #1

kalo itu lolos juga

masih dengan telunjuk

tunjuk dada kamu

not the twins

your heart i mean

nah itu alarm #2

- rp

off i go

2009-07-24T23:19:00.000+07:00

Ada satu masa dimana kita harus berhenti. Berhenti. Tidak melanjutkan. Bukan berarti menyerah. Bukan berarti kalah. Hanya saja, memang hanya itu pilihan yang tersisa. Bukan, bukan pilihan!. Tapi memang hanya itu jalan yang harus diambil. Berhenti. Tidak melanjutkan. Untuk yang terbaik.

Untuk yang terbaik.

26

2009-07-22T00:41:00.000+07:00

it's just a number,...happy birthday Quirkay.

Kota Tua

2009-07-13T20:49:00.000+07:00

Ceritanya si hopy dah lama tidak mengokang itu kameranya (btw, kamera lo kan digital py..heheh) karna udah lama juga saya merajuk, memohon, dan berharap (ini agak berlebihan) minta diajarin motret maka terjadilah pertemuan yang mendadak ini..ceritanya saya masih belum puas juga ke daerah kota,..hehehe, terakhir kesana itu nemenin temen motret (saya belum punya kamera cerintaya :P). ini beberapa penggalan gambar yang saya ambil..

Masih belum semuanya (dan belum puas) lain kali saya akan kembali untuk lebih banyak gambar lagi ..

hopy, masih mengkalibrasi (entah apa ini artinya) baby lensnya

pasti gak lama lagi foto si mbak itu bakal muncul di website foto tetangga :P

kalo udah motret seringkali si tukang foto tidak sadar dengan posisi tubuhnya..hehehe

musium wayang. masuk sini murah, cuman bayar Rp. 2000,- tapi sayang banget kondisinya agak kurang terawat :(

bangunan tua yang sering dijadikan set buat film-film horor di indonesia.

Dan pertanyaan pamungkas saya ke hopy hari itu adalah “eh py, motret bokeh itu gimana sih?!?” ..hehehe, maklum saya amatiran kalo soal teknis

sisanya bisa dilihat di blackcatdeat.deviantart.com. enjoy!

...

2009-07-12T21:44:00.000+07:00

Every person that comes into our life comes for a reason, some come to learn and others come to teach.

True true :)

prozacing

2009-07-08T22:58:00.000+07:00

If you lived your whole life thinking one thing, it would pretty devastating to found out that wasn’t true. But that’s life rite?!

expectation

2009-07-06T22:51:00.000+07:00

Sometimes, things aren’t working just the way we wanted, we lose something, we missed something, or we just might forget something..but hell, we still can laugh at it, and even if you know something’s going to end, that doesn’t mean you can’t enjoy the ride J

mistake

2009-07-04T00:04:00.000+07:00

so if u cant do what he does, playing in the gray zone with no objective, then u dont have to.

Well B, here’s the thing about mistake. Sometimes, even you know something’s a mistake, you gotta make it anyway…even a really really dumb mistake ;)

:)

2009-06-29T22:40:00.000+07:00

Well, life is full of changes.

One day you might be on your top, the other day you’re nothing but a crap.

Who cares, the important stuff doesn’t change anyway J

So, how was your weekend?

2009-06-29T03:25:00.000+07:00

Mine, awesome :)

2009-06-26T01:55:00.000+07:00

I don't even know what I was running for - I guess I just felt like it.

this is so dull.

...

2009-06-19T21:55:00.000+07:00

this is so wrong.