Showing posts with label not a good day. Show all posts
Showing posts with label not a good day. Show all posts

October 25, 2009

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Satu hari seperti hari-hari lainnya saya duduk dikala hujan. Kenapa hujan kali ini terasa hangat, batin saya. Kenapa rasanya ingin berlari dibawah hujan. Kenapa rasanya ingin berteriak kencang. Berteriak entah kepada apa, atau siapa. Bukan salah hujan kalo hari ini saya ingin berteriak kencang. Bukan salah siapa-siapa juga kalo hujan terasa hangat, bukan seperti rasa yg saya inginkan, dingin. Saya masih terduduk diam, memandangi buliran acak hujan dibalik kaca. Berharap dalam hati, hujan datang seperti rasa yang saya inginkan. Dingin, bukan hangat.

April 2, 2009

don't feel like...

Today there will be no words. I am tired of them right now. No matter how many words I utter, they cannot change things, like emotions and circumstances. Every part of me is aching. I can’t even imagine opening my jaw or typing what it would say if it could move.  Today there is only music and lush imagery...and a cig (i wish).

March 2, 2009

never-mind

This is just way too hard.
And I'm too tired.
Too bored.
Too exhausted.
Too complex.
Too hopeless.
Too restless
i must stop this ridiculous impulsive thingy.